Absolutely. I'd take the arrow to the eye and say thank you. I'm not a kid. I've had enough time. If there was something great awaiting me, it'd have happened by now. If I can protect... well. I can't. Moot point.
[ succubus' health depleting. hp bar is yellow now. ]
I'm at peace with my own death. It's everyone else I just can't take anymore.
And I'm not just a girl. [She levels his stare with a firm gaze. She never will pass for intimidating, always slight and precious and petite, but her stubbornness is a decent substitute.] Nodd, I may not remember every time I've lived, but I've lived many times. Countless times. And right now I remember dying, twice.
[She takes his hand and puts it to her heart. Sorry succubus, you're on your own.]
The only reason this is still beating, is because the briars are making it beat. And I'm not the only one with a terrible story and a terrible fate awaiting them. And neither are you.
You can't look at anyone else and tell them you are always worth less. That it should always fall to you to take the heat, or shoulder the blame. Do you know how much it would hurt people to lose you?
[ nodd hasn't cried during any of these threads. and he still hasn't, yet, but his eyes are misting. that pale yellow color of his irises ends up looking even more white--feral.
the succubus dies. nodd pays attention to rosie. he thinks of past companions. of the ones who showed him their office breach, their castle coated in thorny vines. ]
... They're going to make me watch him die tomorrow.
[He's swapped the subject. Or rather turned it to a different degree. That's all right. It's the other half of his defense: one part self-loathing, the other devotion.
It's not as if she can tell him Dion wasn't worth it. He wasn't that creep Myday. He wasn't in any better position than the rest of them have been on this ship. He was just this week's lucky pick.]
I wish I could say it'll be easier, having someone there with you. [Her head shakes, regret bleeding from every pore. If only there were more she could do. Reach in and smooth out the callouses on this old bleeding heart.] But at least you won't be alone.
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Would have been a lot easier if he worked with me.
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Okay, while that is technically true, you know that's not the real issue.
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Are you going to tell me he's still dangerous and there was no point?
[ smacking those buttons with fervor. ]
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[She steps ever so slightly into his line of sight.]
I'm going to tell you that need to put some more value on your own life.
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Next Thursday I could kill you, no matter how much I don't want to. What value is there?
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[She cants her head.]
Are you going to tell me to go for it? Better you than me?
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[ succubus' health depleting. hp bar is yellow now. ]
I'm at peace with my own death. It's everyone else I just can't take anymore.
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[She takes his hand and puts it to her heart. Sorry succubus, you're on your own.]
The only reason this is still beating, is because the briars are making it beat. And I'm not the only one with a terrible story and a terrible fate awaiting them. And neither are you.
You can't look at anyone else and tell them you are always worth less. That it should always fall to you to take the heat, or shoulder the blame. Do you know how much it would hurt people to lose you?
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the succubus dies. nodd pays attention to rosie. he thinks of past companions. of the ones who showed him their office breach, their castle coated in thorny vines. ]
... They're going to make me watch him die tomorrow.
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It's not as if she can tell him Dion wasn't worth it. He wasn't that creep Myday. He wasn't in any better position than the rest of them have been on this ship. He was just this week's lucky pick.]
I wish I could say it'll be easier, having someone there with you. [Her head shakes, regret bleeding from every pore. If only there were more she could do. Reach in and smooth out the callouses on this old bleeding heart.] But at least you won't be alone.
I promise you that.