[ playing with the hem of his robe. what a question. dion's good at hitting hard without even meaning to. ]
No. But maybe this journey has made me wonder if I belong there or not. Maybe I become a space explorer--provided we make it out of this alive, unassimilated.
[ not a very nodd gesture to demurely fold his hands over his lap, but it's happening. old habit, maybe, not quite lost to time. ]
I used to think the answer was not to want anything. I want things hard and I've let that cloud my mind a time or seventy. The monastery worked. But then I had to leave and I met the kids and I wanted to protect them. I wanted that hard. And I don't, in retrospect, think I was that good at it. Cue Eudora. My skillset here couldn't be less attuned, you know? And I keep wanting. So I'm trying to remain open on what comes next. What I want.
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[ crossing his legs and jerking head to indicate the expressionless myconid at the center of the wetbar ]
You?
[ watch out, dion. nodd is in a decent mood but so many Effects... ]
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Investigating. Picturesque as this place is, it reminds me too well of Helly Belly to be able to relax.
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[ indicating his glass. ]
But can't know the horrors if you avoid them.
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And have you learned anything of the horrors yet?
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[ nodd tilts his hand. liquid splashes from glass into the water. ]
It would be my kinda place if uncursed, though. Pretty. Mushroom people make great conversation.
[ joe hasn't died yet ]
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Would you stay here, rather than return to your home?
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No. But maybe this journey has made me wonder if I belong there or not. Maybe I become a space explorer--provided we make it out of this alive, unassimilated.
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Why do you think you do not belong there?
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I'm questioning a lot about myself. Isn't that normal after undertaking a big adventure?
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But it is not a conclusion to be reached without reason.
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I used to think the answer was not to want anything. I want things hard and I've let that cloud my mind a time or seventy. The monastery worked. But then I had to leave and I met the kids and I wanted to protect them. I wanted that hard. And I don't, in retrospect, think I was that good at it. Cue Eudora. My skillset here couldn't be less attuned, you know? And I keep wanting. So I'm trying to remain open on what comes next. What I want.