murdergate | SPACE COAST: PRIVATE CONVO: GREGOR

...is that something like how you felt, last week?

[he has to ask.]

No.

[ said too quickly. because gregor had to ask and he had to answer.

and nodd is better lying than truthing.

he looks down at his hands. knits his fingers together. wiggles them. ]

A little. During my mission with Yuri and Rosie, we saw a scene from my past. My obsession over a boy that betrayed me--a betrayal with a high body count.

[ wigglewiggle ]

In the mission, our job was to accept one of the worst days in our lives. To come to terms with our truth. And I? I tried to kill him. It took the ladies to break me out of it. Dion and that boy were nothing alike, but I know I'm not so different from myself a week ago, ready to destroy a memory before I'll live with it.

...guess in a situation like that, nobody really knows what they'll do until they're in it. Not necessarily a bad thing that you had it in you to try and do something about it.

[but- well. still.]

Shouldn't have knocked her out this time, though. I know she was fighting, but she didn't have to be out while everything happened.

All respect, I don't think any of you had a better solution.

[ love you yuri, sorry yuri ]

If I let her go, she kills herself and then we have to vote for the other guy--and everyone was already going to vote for the other guy. Princess too popular.

[ ... ]

I didn't mean to hit her that hard, anyway. I thought she'd hit me back more.

[ someone break the fourth wall and blame kabby. ]

It wasn't about popularity. It was about thinking they both probably had to die, and at least letting her pick her own way out when she was clear on what she wanted.

[they weren't-- she wasn't going to get spared. not until things went the way they did.]

If he'd spoken up in time we'd have voted for her, because she was the one forced into it.

You think that or you know that?

I'm pretty sure, yeah. A few people already told me they voted for her anyway. Because they were sure of it being her, at the very least.

[ hands up ]

Then I'm a bad guy, Gregor. Is that what you want? I did wrong, 'cause I wouldn't let that girl kill herself in front of me? I tried sitting back. I spent the first half of the day focusing on the murders. Just doing everything I could to shut down thinking about the outcome.

[ he's too tired to be angry. he looks up at the ceiling ]

I still get judged and turn noses. So, what I learned is I'm going to keep doing what I want. The outcome for me is the same. I still lose everyone.

Edited 2024-03-31 03:51 (UTC)

Hey-

[god. he rubs at his face, shaking his head.]

You're jumping to put words in my mouth, there, bud, I'm just trying to tell you what was going on-! Nobody's saying you're a bad guy, here, just that maybe we don't jump right to unconsciousness being the answer!

[ an ugly, sad little laugh. ]

I didn't know it would knock her out like that.

[ his body is a weapon :( ]

I wanted her off her feet, not with cranial damage.

Then consider picking her up!

[MAYBE NO MORE HEADBUTTING AFTER THAT.]

She was biting me! I didn't want her to twirl her, I wanted to get her on her stomach and then we could have hogtied--never mind.

[ his turn to rub a hand on his face ]

No more headbutting.

...y'know what, I think I'll call that good enough.

[ peeking between fingers ]

You're lucky you're hot, Greg.

-what?

[record scratch sound effect]

It makes it easier to hear tough news. It's like, on the one hand, maybe I fuckup a lot. On the other hand, here's Greg, who's--you know--hot. Saying so.

[ this is stated all very casually, especially compared to the emotion of a moment ago ]

I'd be a lot more annoyed hearing it from someone else.

I didn't... think that had anything to do with...

[when you're `huh`. when you're `whuh`.]

Don't take it the wrong way. I wouldn't make a move on someone Rodya was temporarily in love with.

[ the face journey nodd has been on during this talk because he's now slithering (facially) toward amusement. ]

Then what do you call-- this!

[WHY ARE YOU SUDDENLY SAYING HE'S HOT WHAT'S GOING ON]

It isn't making a move. It's stating fact. Making a move would be--

[ !!!! nodd stops himself. clasps his hands normally now. piously. ]

Nothing. It would be nothing I'm going to do. But this isn't it.

[girl help.]

...well, I guess we're gonna have to agree to disagree on the 'facts' here.

I've had a really rough last few weeks.

[ right? they all have, but think of poor, sweet nodd ]

So I'm offering, if it'd help with the edge--'cause it helps with mine. I suck you off.

[ hand up ]

Don't answer yet. You're a decent man, so your first thoughts are proper thoughts. Give the bad ones a chance. Give them a minute.

[WELL I MEAN

HE'S BASICALLY BLUESCREENING

SO MAYBE THE THOUGHTS ARE PERCOLATING MAYBE HE'S TRULY HEAD EMPTY RIGHT NOW]

And that's making a move on you. I'm serious, though. In case you want to convince yourself I'm playing with you. I'd do it in a heartbeat.

[ shrug. pulls up collar of his shirt to take a sniff. frowns. ]

Maybe not this second. I should change.

[ glance to the medbay door ]

...You think they'll be okay if I go shower?

Y-yeah, they'll probably, uh, they'll be... I'm sure Io's keeping an eye out?

[desperately grabbing for something to focus on that is not any of the things nodd just said]

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